Some days are not quite on… today, not on at all. So far from on. Not sure how this happened. Between no breakfast, rushing around, class, a strange person interrupting class three times, sweet and innocent confrontation to the strange person that interrupted class, getting my butt chewed out for confronting strange person by the strange person and feeling like an alien for the rest of the day. Confrontation is not my thing. I hate it! It is the worst thing in the world. This time was different. I did hate it while I was walking over to him, but I did not get upset or angry with him. I expressed myself calmly and clear. Unfortunately he was rude and has a huge anger problem. This is OK. But unfortunately, again, I took that on. Thoughts of “I could have made his day better if I would have said something nice to complement him. He could have just lost a sibling or something. The point is we do not know other people struggles. We see their behavior and we comment, make suggestions or whatever. There is a part of me that feels like I should have asked him was everything OK and then according to whatever his response would have been told him that he had interrupted.
This is one of those weird spaces of uncertainty. I want to be able to stand up for myself and not feel like I am being ran over but at the same time I do not want other people to feel hurt by my very rusty confrontation skills. The things we learn on a Thursday morning.