Happiness, Joy, Pleasant & Loving Environment

I think about these things daily, I think about the people in my life that offer these things to me and I offer these things to them, I sort through the beings who give me hard times and wonder why they are in my life? Their purpose is still true to them, to me. What is it I can learn from them? What can they learn from me?

We all have our beliefs of how the world is or it is supposed to be like.  What we want our lives to be like. What would be nice and make us happy but will it really make us happy? I find myself struggling, when I try to fit into others beliefs of what life is supposed to be like. It looks nice from the outside or when they do it but when I start trying their ideas and ways, it feels uncomfortable. I do realize that all change is a little uncomfortable but this uncomfortable should not last too long if it is going to work for you.

So I have to state, you have to know yourself and be true to yourself. It does not matter what your family has told you and pushed on you all your life. It is okay to try new things and discover what works. I knew from an early age my life was not going to be “normal”. I knew I would never want children of my own and work a 9-5 job. I was finally able to let go of the possibility of me ever having kids when my father was about to pass away.  I had no reason left to hang on to that belief that I had to have a child to be worthy of his love. He loved me anyways, but he wanted a grandchild.

Granted, it makes me sad because that idea was pushed on me since I was young and I could never make myself believe that, it never felt comfortable, it never felt good to even think.  We know ourselves better than anyone else. We just have to release the thinking of what others believe about us.