This is the last day of the year. We finally made it and I have to admit that this has not been the easiest year for me. It’s been down right difficult but still I’ve endured the best I can and I have discovered that sometimes the best we can do is not ever going to be good enough for some people. That is okay. I have to wake up in the morning and see my own smiling face but I also have control over whether or not that face is smiling. This year I have discovered that I am a recovering people pleaser. Recovering meaning I still struggle with this, big time. I have discovered that I have made big decisions in my life based on what others wanted me to do. I have discovered that what I enjoy doing with my life does not involve other people half as much as other people would like. The people that I enjoy spending the most time with are the ones that are just as particular about who they spend time with and whether or not they have had enough “me” time. I discovered that because of all my above discoverers that my life had to totally change. Change can be very difficult and uncomfortable but it is very possible.
I started last week making a few changes in my circles and this is going to be a huge difference in my upcoming year. I want this next year, to really be the best year ever!!! Yes, I say this every year but every year should get better, every day should get better. If it does not then we keep trying and or endure the hard times and cry when we need to, drink all the wine if we need to, eat all the chocolate only if we need to, read a book until 3 am if we need to and wake up the next day and do better. That is our goal in life is to do better than the days before and make changes as needed.
I was reading another year end post from a friend of mine this morning. She had lost her best friend this past year and she has been grieving for about 6 months. She feels as though she just cannot get over it but just recently she started feeling like she was making a breakthrough with the grief. She used a comparison with ice on the pond, when the sun starts hitting it and there are little cracks starting. Eventually, the water with be available again but it is still beautiful in its current condition, frozen. This description she used made me feel so much better about 2017. I think of all the things that happened this year and even though they were very hard to go through they were still beautiful experiences. Accepting, the process of being frozen and slowly being able to melt and become useful again, this is a beautiful thing.
Tomorrow, will alway promise to be new and it just so happens tomorrow begins a new year. I wish everyone a Happy New Year! I hope that you make wise choices, the ones that will prosper you and make you stronger, make you grow. I hope that if you have voids, they are filled with lovely things. I hope that you will experience the ice breaking beauty and when you look back on that beauty, you will see it as such.