Broken Open to Shine

Blowing in the Wind

I can’t believe how much the wind has been blowing this week, how much sleep I’ve gotten, how much a little work makes me feel so much better and how much I want my own space. I am somewhere between giving up and growing up and that feels like chaos in my mind but I keep looking for answers to questions I have never asked before.

Instead of being concerned with what is right for you, what is right for me?

Believe me when I refer to you, it means the population in general, not just one or two humans.

I’m looking at the world with eyes wide open and I see a lot of chaos that I cannot control but when I focus on what my chaos looks like, what I can control inside me?

I know the answers, I know what to do, I know how to keep the winds calm and nice for breezy beautiful days.

I know how to distance myself from what might be dangerous and how to be open to promises of possibilities.

I think we all know how to do these things but in all honesty is peace what we are truly seeking? Or are we seeking familiarity?

How to know… questions to ask…

What environment did you grow up in?

What kind of feelings do you get from other peoples problems?

Do you often get praised for listening or helping with problems of others?

Does that feeling leave you feeling needed?

Does focusing on others leave you in a place where you feel better about your own problems?

Do you feel insecure around people that seem to have it together?

Try this:

Start by just noticing your conversations, notice the questions you ask people, are the questions digging for tea, or are they helpful to the other person or are you increasing their anxiety?

If you notice the drama rising in your relationship, always look at your behavior before handing it off to someone else. Maybe boundaries need to be set, with them, with yourself. Only you will know…

Until next time


Much Love

Much Life

Author: Joy

I am Joy I am content I am patient I am love I am free, fabulous and fit. I am all these things and so much more. I am struggle I am hopelessness I am sad I am endurance I am a warrior I am a princess I am my Father's daughter I am a survivor of loss of hurt of pain. I am encouragement I am influence I am Joy.

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