365:D149
I missed a call last night, from a family member. I texted her back this morning, acknowledging the call, checking to see if all was ok. It was an accidental call. An accidental call that drives pain into my heart. Not on purpose, she was not thinking of me and decided to check in, she was on the phone with someone else and somehow dialed my number with her face. An accident. April 5, 2018 was the last conversation I had with her via text and I am unsure of the last time I spoke with her on the phone.
Painful and I did go to that place of why, but these are things I cannot control. I do not know or understand why I have been forgotten by family but I have decided that I cannot make someone love me. I cannot make someone care or want to have a relationship with me. I can only respond the best way I know how and try to be respectful, to be kind and loving.
The moments we sit in pain because of rejection are hard but there is no one on the earth that can determine our worth.
“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”
Ephesians 2:10 NLT
https://www.bible.com/116/eph.2.10.nlt
He has a plan for each of us and His plan does not promise that our walk will be easy. The mountains we are climbing today will someday product the most beautiful view imaginable. We just have to have the faith the size of a mustard seed, the will to keep moving and the ability to be still and hear His voice.
Trusting with much love💜
