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As the sun rises here in the East, an hour ahead of the western people, of the state. From one end to another I think of all the people I know in between. The ones I left in the west. The ones that will be visited often. The road trips ahead of me, for once do not leave me with sorrow but excitement.
Fear is a topic I often cover, I am one that is filled with fear. There are things that bring this fear up: being in a car, driving or not, commitment, frogs, not being loved and accepted, being stabbed with a knife. Those are big fears and are often triggered. It is not in fear but in faith that we can thrive. Faith is the ability to let go of the fears we have and trust. Throughout most of my days, I pray for courage and a willingness to let go of my fears and actually make the most out of life. Most days are pretty positive and successful. Other days, I stay in bed. On the bed staying days, I tend to examine what has gotten me so wrapped up, am I just tired, is there something more going on, am I getting sick, another fear that has recently gotten worse. Most of my fears can be cut right off by just trusting in Gods word but it does take more than just having this faith. It takes a knowing of God. So far, he has not put anything on me that I could not handle, the things that seemed to hard, he gave me a team of protection, he has given me a place to rest when I am weary and time to heal a terrible broken heart. These are all amazing gifts that I have received and I am thankful.
The things that keep me in faith and out of fear is having this place to be all open and honest, and yes there are tons of times that I write and do not publish because it might be to harsh, fear… guardian, fear of not being accepted. Even though I know I have the right to be, say and write however I feel. Some friends are not accepting of me. So this has become a not so safe place. That is not really ok, because it stunts the growth process but then it is a known fact that so many people do not want their friends to grow for some reason or another. The thing is, when a person is ready to grow and get big, there is no space that can contain them. We can get lured into cages, confined by fears, hurts and insecurities. How can it be that this confined life be what God wants for us? It is not what he wants for us and when we know that, I mean really know that, we learn how to break free. We learn how to live and trust in His promises, not the way of the world, we learn how to stand up for ourselves, we learn to be the princess warrior. We learn to let go of fear. This is my learning process for stepping out of fear and into faith. Please feel free to share any fear fighters you may have!
Much Love 💜 Much Life
