I watch a man grow old, diluting himself with bourbon and weed. I watch a cat starve, no desire to eat but drink water, from the bowl from the tub, only water. Wasting away, my guys, sadness everyday, I watch the days, hours and minutes slip by. I watch friends come and go. To much to less. Things of serious meaning are found funny. Questions answered but not considered in response. Why bother? Why care for so many things and people that have no value. What does it mean to have no value? Not to respond, not to be heard. Sinking into the sadness of my evening, my life. Tomorrow, is a new day. It will be filled with hope, cookies and a lot more of the watching. Let my heart just break in two. Let it bleed like a river flowing. Let it operate as two because I need two hearts. Let it make a full circle, round, with no awkward corners. Nothing sharp at the edges, just round, smooth circle.