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I slept, until 9:45. Woke up again from a deep sleep, my body aching, feeling lethargic. Full day ahead, no way to cancel any meeting or any class. It all had to be done. Prayers to just make it through but that was not enough, I had to make a promise to myself to do something super kind for myself if I was going pulled this off. I promised myself that if I made it through and did the best I could yesterday that I would spend much needed time in the hot tub and sauna today. So I have two classes to go and I am packed and ready for my “hot” experience.

In the past, I would have never done this, I would have longed to do it but would have accepted any invitation to do something or help someone else. The thing I am struggling with is that I brought this whole aching ouchie feeling on myself… I chose to eat super bad this week. I let one Reese’s turn into a few and bought a half gallon on ice cream… this behavior is like stabbing myself in the leg. It will hurt, you know it will hurt and no one in their right mind would do this. So why do I keep doing this crazy eating??? I digress… Today, I will stay true to myself no matter how bad I have been. No beating myself up or stabbing myself in the leg. Just kindness, just observation and learning.

How are you being kind to yourself today?

Much Love 💜 Much Life