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I am so thankful


Today, October 9, 2020, I am thankful for the bullet that I just dodged… not a real bullet, from a real gun but one that would have pierced my skin and gone deep deep into my core.

Ladies, it is so important that you listen to your intuition! One more time, LISTEN to your Intuition!!!! If something does not feel right in a situation, in a relationship, in a friendship, walking down the street…. please listen to your gut. It is trying to tell you something of great importance! Our bodies have the magical power to tell us when situations are not good. They tell us all kinds of things, our bodies, it will let you know when you’ve had way too much stress on your plate, the reactions comes out in rashes, hives, loss of appetite, loss of sleep. Our bodies know things that we, in our mind, do not know or have not realized yet. Please I beg you to pay attention to what your body is telling you. It could cost you so much if you do not listen. If you do listen you can gain the world.

My bullet tonight, was hateful, manipulating and has been pushing me down for weeks. A man that supposedly loved me and wanted to marry me, he chooses to degrade me every chance he gets and expects me to come running back to him begging for more. I saw signs of this early in the relationship and chose to ignore them but when things got to tough, I tucked my tail and ran for the mountains. Thank God for good friends!!!

If you have not heard of the word narcissistic it is time for you to know about this demon… Narcissistic people are attracted to a certain type of person. Normally the person that they are attracted to is very kind, loving, open minded, open hearted and a little bit naïve. They often look for people who have experience grief, trauma, depression, they are usually very vulnerable. In the beginning, the narcissistic person is unbelievable. They are interested in what you want and what you need they want to hear all about your life, ask you questions. Then… The game changes, they have your information,your vulnerabilities, your weaknesses, your desires, your needs and your wants, and in hindsight you have nothing of theirs because they will not tell you anything.

The end result is you are left feeling like you are a low down, no good, dirty rotten scandal. This can be debilitating Especially because at this time you probably have a lot of love in your heart for this person. They could possibly be the person you love more than anything in the world and they are treating you like garbage. My recent episode steams from me trying to let my person know that I missed him and needed confidence in order to move down to where he is at. After months and months of him trying to give it to me to move to his location I felt as though we were growing apart and we were. This was too much for him to bear and he went ballistic. How dare I ask for such things. Currently I am on the upside and seeing him for what he is and it hurts I cannot lie but at the same time I also see who he really is and so therefore I am so happy that I dodged this bullet. It is so much easier to deal with this being around friends and loved ones rather than actually have moved down there and have had no one to support me emotionally.

This is why it is so important to listen to your intuition. I cannot say enough how much our body knows more than our minds especially when love is involved or a so-called want to be love. So please listen to your body when it talks to you.

Do not let mean boys beat you up on the playground…

Much Love 💜 Much Life

Author: Joy

I am Joy I am content I am patient I am love I am free, fabulous and fit. I am all these things and so much more. I am struggle I am hopelessness I am sad I am endurance I am a warrior I am a princess I am my Father's daughter I am a survivor of loss of hurt of pain. I am encouragement I am influence I am Joy.

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