Anxiety filled heart. The voice of a drunken one warmed ears with kind words of departure. No loud statements this evening, just truth to move on, no plan in place, just action to take. Seeds of doubt planted everyday, cultivating a mind of worry and mistrust. Breaking down the soul and spirit to life as once was. Survival is needed, independence a must! Avoidance all week has taken a toll, into darkness that has robbed the soul. Stop dreaming and wishing of life meant to be, no worries of nothing, just be with me. Leave and go far far away, things that are said every other day. Stuck in the madness, not knowing which way to turn. Praying for peace and another lesson learned.