What is this? 365:D59:S2
To find someone to care about is a wonderful thing. Someone that makes you smile and light up. Even on the darkest days, one word from them can change the whole situation. Then, there comes the infatuation stage… I have a love/hate relationship with this stage. It feels so good when you are with the person but when you are not, it is torture! The heart aches so bad like it has been stabbed and the knife is slowly being pulled out. Gross but true. There are all these emotions just running around going crazy. Questions start randomly popping into your mind about one thing or another. Then when the two of you are together, those crazy questions are irrelevant because the laugher, warm and fuzzy feelings trump crazy questions every time.
The crazy questions though are real and need to be addressed. The truth about cats and dogs… When a man loves a woman…the fault in our stars… under the Tuscan sun.
A relationship is more than just being goo goo eyed, Twitter patted and all that jazz. It has to have a firm and truth filled foundation.
This is hard to get back to after that first kiss. I was listening to a webinar/podcast the other day that talked about the 12 steps of a relationship…. I was shocked and never thought about such things. Twelve whole steps to form a relationship. This is a ton of work but the truth about the whole thing is we are a people have become lazy with everything. Especially relationships…. so I looked it up. I had to learn more about these 12 steps to relationship recovery… ok not recovery but for me it would be recovery because I am no expert on relationships.
1. Awareness – the act of noticing. Seeing a person and being like, wow. So I am super slow on this part. For the last few years I have noticed and thought, handsome, but nothing more. In the current situation, I probably would not have noticed him except he was like, “you will see me” but he was not crazy, he was adorably sweet and absolutely kind. I noticed him, the second time I saw him… I did not think much about it because I have been in “arms length” mode for so long and I was really hoping that I would just keep pushing interested people away. Makes life so much easier…
2. And the eyes meet – I feel like I look everyone in the eyes but maybe not everyone. Maybe just people that I work with, my students okay people on the street.. I’m trying to remember if our eyes met the very first conversation…. I’m almost 98.6% sure that they did.
3. Talking- breakfast, he was very inquiring with questions and interest but at the same time was available to share which was nice. I hate asking questions, I feel always like I’m prying. This is something I should probably try to get better at. I mean everyone should ask questions.
4. Holding hands- he has read this stuff before because he did this… tried to help me down the stairs, over the fence. Yes I am smiling so big at this moment just remembering that night. Best full moon ever.
I believe I’ll save #5 for later. This whole walking down memory lane has made me happy.