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Not that everyday has to be fantastic but usually, there is some moment that makes me think oh wow, this is a great day! Even if it is just that one moment, that keeps me pumped up for several hours, which somehow turns into the “big great day”. Today, however, there was no great moment. There were okay moments, and even some that turned into, really, this, as I roll my eyes… yes, from time to time I still roll my eyes. I still wonder if all this crazy life is going to be ok or could it actually be phenomenal? Things happen, that snap us back into reality and I wonder if we can ever go back to that “ oh my gosh, this is the best person, place or thing!!! Sometimes I really need, excitement in my life, like something new, something different to get my pulse racing. I wish I had my bicycle. I need a bike ride out at Shelby Farms. Something a little intense a little scary. I always loved being out there during the Halloween season…. Getting out there about an hour before dark, racing like hell to get back before the light is forever gone, at least until the morn. Those were good times! My last bike was stolen and I really do not have a proper place to store a bike so I do not care to invest in such but that one thought makes me think… just maybe. There is a song, called “surrendering” playing in the background and it’s so simple, so relaxing I do not know what the words would be to this song but I would guess…

I know your feeling so far away

I see you changing every Single day

Changing your heart, planning to stray

Actually I have no idea but the notes are terribly beautiful, I love this song and I think it’s better just not knowing. I cannot imagine the word surrendering being said once but it does make you want to just let go.

Like I said, not a fantastic day, just another day…