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This has been on of the hardest bumps to get over in quite awhile. I miss my students, I miss my friends. I’ve had way to many days of going through old things, throwing things away, remembering or reminiscing. It has been really hard. Really depressing. I just want a break and I hope the next few days will be that break but somehow I’m unsure about that. I really want to finish up this downer project and get it behind me but it will continue for the next few weeks, this I’m sure of. I know now why I have put this off for so long. It is hard emotionally and physically. Sometimes I feel like I take on too much too fast and this is one of those times. This is one of those times where I feel overwhelmed with grief and heartache. Like there is no end. I feel miserable and alone. Hard day, yes no doubt, but I have no choice now but to finish this cup of coffee, get up and get going. I have to go search for happiness outside because i am definitely not feeling it on the inside and it’s a beautiful day! There has to be more to life than this… I know there is and I’m just wrapped up is my sadness right now. I’m going for a walk.

Much Love 💜 Much Life