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This year, I really want to lose this thing that I have been hanging onto for so long… FEAR. The monster that it is, the nasty, Grotesque things that it does. I really want it out of my life. I really want to be free of this demon. So I took a step forward and decided to see what this would be like. Felt kind a like a deer in headlights but I did it. Unfortunately, this is how fear works… We do something absolutely amazing that is one step forward and makes us feel courageous, then we tell somebody or they found out and start planting seeds of doubt once again. Two minutes later Fear arrives and is like no no no you cannot do this, you just return back into your little hole and go to sleep.

This is not healthy. It is not fun either but we do it and we look back and wonder about all the opportunities All the wonderful things that has passed us by just because someone said we could not do it.

Not only that but when we make choices based on other people’s thoughts or feelings that affects our life directly, this gives those people power over us and either way, either decision we make will be sour.

This seems to stem from a place that someone else’s feelings and wants are more important than our own. Again, not healthy, but sometimes we need to know not to try the Filet mignon at an Italian restaurant.

I have discovered that intuition is the best tool in this situation. It is pretty much on point every time. The thing about intuition is you have to be available for it to really show up, be in a place of calm and be able to really listen. When it does make the call listen, yes, the doubt planters will not like it and that will hurt your heart but what feels good is knowing you did what was best for you at that time.

With love, happiness and a peaceful heart