Understanding: 365 D 25

Having such a wonderful weekend is making this morning so very hard. Motivation is very low and I do not want to function! So the thoughts that crowed my mind is a longing for the family I once had. A sorrowful endeavor that will not be reconciled. These thoughts are the hardest for me. No more…

But I am inspired by just waking up, by the smell of coffee brewing, the memories of the best weekend ever. There are things that wake us up and make us feel alive again, this weekend, I believe I ran across these things. Truth, laughter and honesty. A safe place to be who we really are. Friendship that continues to endure and make ease. Even on the Sundays when I long for a place called home and I honestly do not know where that is or where I might find it. I felt comfort in a hug. A simple hug, an embrace that said I mattered and I will continue to matter. No matter how hard my days may get. My family has changed and it’s not the same as it has been for the majority of my life, but I have to admit, my new family accepts me, loves me and feed me, not only cookies and tea but encouraging words, that I have longed for so long. I cannot help but think I am in the right place.

There are going to be hard days ahead and there are much harder days behind, but my tribe has my back. I do not need a bloodline, I have the friend line.

Love as much as you can. See the beauty that surrounds you!