I have longed for friendship, real and true friendship for so long. A friendship that allows you to be yourself all the time, that gives you the freedom to say what you need to say when you need to say it. This is rare at least for me. Even my best (longest close) friend is constantly criticizing me for one reason or another. I am not wining about this I am just stating that my hair length and color are my choices. If I never apply makeup again, my choice and if I want to appear like a 40 year old woman that does not care if she gets married again, still my choice. So in a nutshell, my friendships…
At the beginning of 2018 I made it a goal to find meaningful friendships. Actually my goal was to find one meaningful friendship. There were several people who stopped in for a moment but did not last for one reason or another. I even checked this off my list because of one girl but had to add it back because well, it was not meaningful.
So I dig deeper into this whole meaningful friendship thing and it seems as though, it cannot be forced. Two people have to meet and have a conversation and find enough common ground to build on… sounds easy enough but very hard for a person who is not interested in everything but only a few things.
These things take time. I have been friends with this one girl for 10 years, 10 years, we have shared the love of our pets, our travels, fashion, art but only recently did she really open up and tell me the hard stuff. I’ve known her for 10 years and I did not know some of the hardest things for her. Every time she entrusts in me it makes me love her that much more. She gives me strength with her stories, she makes me want to be a better person. She makes me talk about my crap. This friendship has been simply amazing and one day, if she would give me permission I would tell you all about this wonderful lady! As for now, she just keeps me going, focused, happy and inspired. She keeps me up to date on performances in the local sector. She keeps me real and down to earth and I think I do the same or similar for her!
“On Golden Pond” performance by five people in the local Memphis area. We went and it was hard, on both of us, she cried, I did not. I remembered being that girl, she wanted to be that girl. Family, makes you who you are and makes you strive to do better or run far away. Anything and everything in between. We all want to be loved and accepted by our family. If this does not happen, well we simply have to find a new family, that will love and accept us.
So that is what we have done! Most meaningful moments cannot be placed on Facebook or even a picture snapped. They happen without us being aware at the moment but we look back and remember the beauty.