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‪Feels so alone and afraid dare I try one more day to carry on to move forward to find strength seems morbid a silent peace comes over me a backwards moment how can it be truth is I’m not in control… neither or you‬

My eyes are puffy so many tears my body is tired feels like years have passed by in just a couple of days I know right now there are better ways strength is lost and must be found looking for the common ground a place to go and rest and figure out what is best I sit and watch the sun come up over the fence over the mulch nothing grows here nothing planted nothing alive nothing granted A star still shining in the sky or is that a tear falling from my eye coffee tastes so good today and for that I am thankful there is a way… today I will find it my way back home behind my eyes only place is known dreaming keeps me alive and sane without those dreams I am sure to die

The thing I know beyond a doubt is love is not for all not for me I shout time does pass and what is found that wholeness is perfection without a sound no one to examine no one to inspect no one to give hugs not even a peck surely this is not the truth surely I’m not fatigue from out of the blue maybe it is normal maybe it is my mind maybe understanding would be so kind

Maybe the life for me does not come with afternoon tea or sunshine blazing down each day afternoon rains come what may

Much Love 💜 Much Life

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