Having a plan in place and working that plan… hard. Doing the work… hard, getting distracted by every little thing, problem, obstacle, easy.
There are days when I cannot pull it together to do what needs to be done. I celebrate the little accomplishments because that is all I can do right now. I still get lost in fear of losing this or that. I still am a victim of heartbreak and unsure if it will ever mend.
The next right thing: is it to run or stay still? Jump or just fall? Listen to heart or mind? Figuring out which piece goes where.
Bad decisions…. I want to jump and fall so far down… I am at the bottom, down is not that far…