Understanding: 365:D40
My car tag expired, yesterday. I thought about this several times and even went to the office but the amount of people standing in line, even outside was so overwhelming. So I put it off, again. I have had a list of 6 important things to do since September 16 and every time I looked at this list I would just get sick to my stomach.
Yesterday, I did make progress on this list and for each thing I completed, I celebrated, a little “yah me” kind of thing. So this morning I got in my car, feeling strange, the beauty of the morning, in which I had long forgotten. The way the air smells before the sun is completely risen. The way the clouds look during this beautiful beginning of the day. I was happy in that moment! I felt like, yes!, today things are going to happen!!!
Then, I was standing in line at 7:05 waiting and wondering if I was going to make it to midtown for a yoga class that I have been wanting to attend for six months. I purchased my tag, ran outside, had a devilish time getting the sticker on my car, then shot over to the studio. As I walked in, it did not appear as if they had started but no one came to the front to greet me, so I walked back there. Nervous because of the rush, the anxiety of first time here, first class but God had me right where he wanted me. I unrolled my mat, the teacher gave me a pillow and we all started talking.
It was so good to be in the presence of these three ladies. The stories they shared made me look at myself with acceptance and love because they choose to accept where they are and love themselves, even through the pain. So for today, I will accept my current mess, I will love myself and others. I will try to be a person that will help others when they are in pain.
Sidebar: so after class, I just had to talk to the teacher, one on one. This was amazing because she was my teacher from like 1980 something… I was a kid… and do not know if I actually even knew her last name. It was so amazing to reconnect with her! Her energy is amazing as is her spirit!! I can tell this is going to be a great day!!!
