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Some days… it is really hard to love people. Today has been my day and even at this moment I am struggling. I have been searching my heart all morning trying to figure out where or why this struggle has hit me. A lot of things came up but they all feel like excuses; expectations, self doubt, loneliness, uncomfortable feelings of not being appreciated. I started waiting on God, to put me in the right mindset, something, anything that would soften my heart.

Yesterday, Franco spoke about the role of a wife, husband and the gospel. You can go here to see the sermon My takeaway from all this, because I am not married nor plan on being anytime soon, leaned more towards the husbands role. I believe a lot that he mentioned does go toward the singles in the husbands role: Love his wife, unconditionally, agape love, like Jesus. Love with perceived value, not actual value. Love not to lead but to love. Even when they are unlovable. So singles do not have a wife so let’s replace wife with everyone.

This is hard especially the whole when they are unloveable. Or have treated you poorly, not listening and not hearing what you say. It is so hard to keep love in your heart when you feel mistreated but that still does not change the act of love. So some days are a struggle and we question why we do this but every time it feels better to love than not to love. It feels better to think good things about the people that give us a hard time.

Much Love 💜 Much Life