Waiting, that has been constant in my life. There are numerous things that I have been waiting on to show up in my life and as I took inventory of my goals this morning; some things have shifted, somethings I have not even thought about and somethings are on my mind everyday and I even have taken action on but nothing, I still wait. Trying to be hopeful and patient, I try to tell myself that it will come. I will have my own space soon, my own house but I do get discouraged. My discouragement this morning is not about having a home but it’s about a leaving a class that I love so much because it does not make sense financially anymore. Actually, it has not made sense for the last two years. I have really just realized it. Sometimes, we hang on to things because of comfort, we get attached to certain things and people and forget about the goal. The goal for me with work is not to spend a million hours in a car everyday but in front of people in practice.
The scary thing is that some of my classes have started lining up, but do I love them? Not yet, there is even one that puts the fear of God in me every Wednesday (growth spurt).
In February, I plan to let go of 3 classes on Sunday because I want two days off in a row and I have already added three replacements during the week. Cost of doing this: $4 increase in pay, an extra 30 minutes a week not driving for work and two days off together. It does not sound like much but to me, it will make a world of a different. Other changes that may happen or options would be to pick up another (growth spurt) class that follows a class I already have and drop my long distance class… cost: increased pay $5 drive time 0 saving me an hour a week…
The latter seems obviously the right one, but I wait to make the decision.
Decisions & waiting: how many things are we waiting on just because of a decision that has to be made? How often is the decision permanent? And all of the decisions above even getting a house which feels kind of permanent at the moment, but it’s really not. We can always change, sale, switch if we don’t like the outcome. It may not be instantaneous but everything changes unless we wait.