365:D142

Since I have so many questions about everything… I think Wednesday will be dedicated to questions of why…. at least until I run out of questions or get bored with why?

Sent back into the past of emotional events. Unable to recall a large portion of childhood. Two events come to mind. One was very happy, the other, not so much. Looking for when this block came. Why it is there and if it is worth discovering? This matters because in this adult life there has only been one decent partner. When you hear decent, this means that he always wanted what was best, even if it meant he gained nothing. He was encouraging at all times. He truly believed and wanted success and happiness. This was an amazing feeling to have that kind of support and love! After his death, the wolves in sheep’s clothing appeared again.

Are we so drawn to familiarity that we cannot let go of the bad things that cause us problems and pain? Do we think that this is the best we can do? Is it an energy that is sent out to the world from our inner beings saying, vulnerability here! Even deeper, why is it so hard to leave a bad situation? Thoughts of leaving cross the mind everyday but action never happens. Why does one stay?